In Chaos my mind is!!!

Taking the fact that I am a Libra out of the mix because Libra's can almost never make a decision at least without second guessing themselves (sometimes even third, forth and fifth guessing) and even after we have made our final decision we worry that perhaps option B would have been better. UGH!!!

Anyway, after a year of car issues and just kinda sorta of keeping my eye on the job market for something closer to home because I am determined not to buy a new car until I absolutely have no choice so we can get as many of our house renovation bills paid off as possible I managed to land a few interviews. Some of the interviews were not close to home but at least I would have been able to take the bus unlike working in Arden Hills where the transit website said there was no way they could get me to Land O Lakes between the hours of 5am and 10am from North Minneapolis even if I were to walk several miles.

Is it me or don't most interviews seem to go really well? Every time I interviewed, even if I wasn't excited about the company or the job I always got good vibes but never any offers. Except for the Wells Fargo job, I did NOT get good vibes in that interview at all and in fact I was getting stressed out just hearing about the job. Don't get me wrong, I know many people that work for Wells Fargo and LOVE their jobs but none of them are in payroll.

I wasn't desperate to leave Land O Lakes and my car seems to be running very well so when I got a call from a local Hospital to come in for an interview, I was like "Sure, whatever" and OMG they called me back for a 2nd interview, followed by a job offer.

CRAP!!! Now I have to make a decision and it's not just a Burrito or a Fajita this will affect not only me but Scott because of the benefits. I will also have to change dentists, learn a new computer system, meet new people, new schedule, clothes, etc... What if they don't like me? What if I don't like them, the job, where I am sitting etc... I am in a Libra nightmare.

Live in the moment, Live in the moment, Live in the moment... Breathe....

In the interview the people seemed great, the location is REALLY close to our house, the job itself is what I already do but it's just different enough to keep me from getting bored at least for a while and based on the description of it I actually got excited because it seemed so perfect.

So I accepted the job offer and now I am faced with another nightmare. I have to put in my notice. In payroll you never know if they are going to ask you to leave immediately for confidentiality reasons or if you will have to stay for the duration of your notice. I was hoping for the immediate option which is why I completely cleaned out my desk before I put in my notice so all I would have to do is grab my bag and go. But alas! I have to stay the duration of my notice and I have NOTHING at my desk to keep me occupied.

So yesterday, I received my job offer confirmation letter and everything in it is at it was offered but then you read things that you already know but to see them in writing causes a little uneasy stir like "The first 60 days are a probationary period" and "Minnesota is an AT WILL State so if we hate you we can fire you for no reason at all" that combined with the full medical examination and drug test that I have to do next Tuesday that warns me not to eat poppy seeds or drink excessive amount of caffeine or I could fail. WHAT!!! Are you kidding me? Why is it every time I have to do a drug test I freak out even though I haven't done drugs in years and years? I am going to a BBQ on Saturday, what if they have poppy seed buns?

OK, since I have put in my notice, nobody asks me questions anymore and my job has been dissected and split up amongst the others and although I am required to be here I have absolutely nothing to do except write this meandering blog that is just really a whole lot of nothin. I wish we had a wireless connection in here, then I could at least sign in to Facebook and send people eggs!